Introduction

This will serve as my online therapy for my life. In April 2009, my house burned and we lost everything. I'm trying to figure out how to recover from this. I worry about my kids, I worry about the details and let myself slide in the process. I want to make my peace with this so I can begin to put the peices back together but so far, thinking too hard or too long about what was and what could have been still brings tears. I should be graetful no one was hurt, I should be grateful no one was home. I should be thrilled we had insurance and will get our house back. I'm just pissed. In the few months since the fire, I have started having trouble sleeping and gained 15 pounds. AlL I want is my life back and that doesn't seem like its going to happen just yet. I want to go back to where I was 4 months ago. I deal with the insurance guys, the contractors, the landlord of our rental house because my mom doesn't seem up to it. When did I become the parent?