why why why why

Why did this happen? I have asked that question a 1000 times and yet the answer eludes me. Why? I am a Virgo, and as such I love to analyze things until I feel I completely understand it. I truly believe what doesn't kill me will only make me stronger. Frankly, I have been through worse. That was an interesting thought that occur ed to me last night. This is bad, real tough. But I have been through much worse. This is only the physical, the material that was damaged. I have waded through much darker places and always managed, somehow to come out the other side one way or another. I guess I'm starting to think maybe we will with this too. If I can get through some of the places I have been, including the destruction of a marriage among other things, this too shall pass. Interestingly enough, Patrick told me the other day he feels like he's the only one who is not over this. I almost laughed. I explained to him that even though it may seem like the rest of the family has not been as affected as he was, that grownups just don't show things the way kids do. I assured him I was no way over this yet. I can only hope I'm doing this right, if there is a right way. Maybe any way that gets you through it is all right, as long as you don't hurt anyone else in the process.